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Me no feels too good. Haven't felt 100% for a couple days now, had sinus and period-related lousy feelings. Then last night I got virtually nothing done. I hate that. Spent a lot of time online brainstorming with Snow (online pal, SM Dark people will be familiar with her) because she got a spark of an idea from the (fan)senshi based on birds and we went 'round and 'round about that for a while. That was cool, but once I got offline it was pretty late. I decided to try a different vcr with my video capture card to see if I could eliminate lines in the stills (8 hour tapes do it :P) and was successful with that, except this vcr pauses lousy, so I had to keep rewinding and trying to catch people without pausing them. Some of them looked really funny. XD Biiig time waster, but at least I got some nice pics from "Ride with the Devil" (yes, THAT movie again). I didn't even have any sound for the big death scene and it still got me all weepy. XD I guess that was something to get done, though not really what I was shooting for.

Once I got sick of that, I went to do some other stuff and something triggered a panic attack. Does anyone else have these things? They used to be isolated to just certain stimuli, but they've gotten worse over the years and they make me feel so incredibly lousy, like I'm going to die or something. It's just total panic; can't breathe, shaking, heart racing, stomach starts churning, can't calm down... the not being able to breathe is the worst part. I got that calmed down after a while but another one started right around 6a.m. I had to force myself to eat something (just 'cause I hadn't) and then to work on an essay just to get my mind off the panic. That worked, thankfully.

Then tonight, I had another for no good freakin' reason. Nothing to panic about, no bad thoughts, just sitting here and BAM. It's still sort of here, though it's calmed down a little. I may cut out the caffiene for tonight and see if that helps at all. But I'm feeling like a tangle of neuroses tonight. :P I hope I can actually get something done. It'd be nice to be able to breathe. :P

Feelin' fine.

Ah, the panic attack finally calmed down. Thank you distractions from mind-numbing panic! I am sleepy and ready for beddie by.

But first, I did some searching this morning to find out new stuff about the movie "Cursed" and it's possible that Skeety will be cut from it. :( Hope not. The movie has been completely retooled because Miramax hated the original ending, among other things. I found a summary that filmjerk.com posted for the original ending, the one that has been totally scrapped. IT'S SO FUNNY!!! XD XD XD Okay, get ready for it...

In the original ending, it was going to turn out that the killer werewolf (it's a werewolf movie) would be Scott Baio. Um, no, not Scott Baio playing a character, or even Scott Baio playing 'The Werewolf.' It was Scott Baio playing Himself who turns out to be Scott Baio, Werewolf!! XD XD XD Like, the actual characters would go, "Oh my god! The werewolf is... SCOTT BAIO!" XD I'm dyyyyyin over here!! XD XD That is SO GREAT!! And I mean great in a wonderfully cheesy, intensely funny way. I laughed so hard I snorted like Chrissy Snow for a good two minutes after I read that. (Yes, I do snort when I laugh really hard.) I can't imagine how much I would have embarrassed myself in the theatre if they had done that. XD I WANT THE MOVIE TO END LIKE THAT! Can't they have "Cursed: The Extremely Cheesy, Pop Culturey, Hilarious Ending Version" and "Cursed: The Retooled, Maybe Better Version"? Woohoohoo that's funny. It's so bad I want to marry that ending. XD XD There are not enough "dead from laughing" faces to express how funny that ending is to me.

I hope Skeet's still in the movie though. Even if Scott Baio did get cut. XD