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sailorhathorMy LJ email is still all fucked up, but I think it's getting slightly better. I'm receiving old comments now, a day after they were posted. I'm having to stalk certain posts to be able to see new comments within a reasonable amount of time. If there's something you said to me in the last two days and you really thought I would have responded by now, point it out to me, because I might not be aware of it.
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remixthedrabble and my fic Orange-Flavored Kiss was remixed not once, but twice! It's short and it has food!porn so it's a natural to be remixed into a drabble. :) ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
emmademarais and melodyunity did the awesome remixes. If you like the Dean/Paul pairing (or just hot slash in general), you should definitely read them! Emma's Remix and Melody's Remix.
I have a few general opinions to express about tonight's "Supernatural" so I'm going to put them under a cut for spoilers. I thought the episode was okay, had a few good ideas. I was a little disappointed in certain things, but other things were very nice. Sort of a "meh, it was okay" episode.
-I'm just relieved we didn't end on a huge cliffhanger, like "oh shit, did Castiel survive???" or Dean being thrown back in Hell. The WB used to twist events in their commercials so you'd think one thing was going to happen on a show when really, something totally different would happen - they lie sometimes to get you to watch, or just to make poor fans worry their little heads off. The CW does this too, as they did with the commercial for this week's episode. Dean: "What are you gonna do, throw me back in the pit?" Uriel gives him an "I am not amused" look. Next shot, Dean's back in Hell. Yeah, I so knew that wasn't going to happen. Lying CW. But even so, I'm glad it didn't happen. :D
-I'm disappointed with Anna's backstory. It's just not really what I wanted. I knew there was something off about her because of how she reacted to Castiel and Uriel coming, and her powers, and because she could see the true faces of demons. But I was kind of hoping if she was going to be an angel that she'd be, like, the child of Lucifer and/or an angel of Hell. I just have this thing for angels of Hell since Edge (a character of mine who became an angel of Hell and was eventually promoted to muse this year; I just have a strong connection with him for some reason). Or maybe just badass angels in general. It was hard to buy Anna as an angel, really. She had this extremely youthful voice that just ruined the effect for me. That and just other things about her... meh. Whatever, I just didn't care about her much.
-I don't get why Bobby's panic room keeps out angels. Ghosts, I understand, demons, okay, but why angels? Angels don't like salt? That was a great line, though, when Dean said that the room keeps out demons and gestures to Ruby, standing outside the room, and Ruby says the fact that the room is demon proof is racist, and Dean goes, "Call your congressman." Bahaha.
-I liked the Dean/Anna sex scene simply because it got Jensen shirtless (but DAYUM does he have a nice back; I wanna SCRATCH it for 'im) and he's such a hotass kisser. ^_^ It seemed kinda forced in there, though. Another sweeps moment. And they copied "Titanic" with the hand against the fogged up car window, heehee. Oh well. I didn't hate Anna, but she didn't stir much in me either.
-I looooved all the Dean/Castiel moments. Loved, loved, loved them. When Uriel said to Dean that Castiel didn't want to throw Dean back into Hell because, "He likes you." Yeeeee! And when Castiel was in danger and Dean defended him, yeeeee! And all the looks Castiel gave, the wounded, suffering, "I don't want to do this because it will hurt Dean, but I have to" sort of looks. My favorite expression was when Alastair was trying to hurt Castiel, and Cas was on the floor giving these "gee, that kind of hurts," wounded looks, I just wanted to jump him and make it all better. Soooo adorable and hot.
-But I'm disappointed that when the demons and angels came together to fight, it was mostly about punching. Ugh. Gimme some badass angely demony fighting! Humans can punch! Angels should be able to do something far more awesome. At least bring out their wings. Although, Uriel's thing, the way he burned the demons out of the human bodies, that was cool.
-That was a pretty good trick they played on the demons and angels, bring them together in one place and let them fight it out. I think they should have tried something like that to save Dean from his deal - promise his soul to someone else and let them fight it out with Lilith, hoping they'll kill each other. Not foolproof, but it might've worked.
-I wonder what Ruby was talking about, the extra thing Sam can do that he doesn't want to do anymore? That sounded interesting.
-Dean did some major crying at the end there. Awww, poor thing. I think that's more tears that we've seen run down his face than ever before. I understand why he feels guilty, but I don't think he should feel so bad. The people he was torturing in hell were most likely there because they deserved to be, unlike him. But I get it. Dean became everything he was raised to hate. Poor Dean, let Castiel kiss it and make it better.
-I really can't fathom what 30 years of torture would do to a soul. Dean should be screaming mad, really. At the very least, he should be waking up from his nightmares in a screaming, crying mess.
-That really was a good trick they played on everybody. They played Uriel, they played Alastair... I wonder if Anna was in on it? It kinda seems like she was, because she knew the necklace around Uriel's neck held her grace. I dunno. I'm sure they didn't mean for Ruby to wind up being tortured. Woops.
-I think that's all I wanted to say. If anything else comes to me, I'll add it.
Finally, this really wasn't a good day. I'm going to give the short story. They've been cutting my hours at work again, and I've been really sick with sinus problems off and on for two weeks (I have a fever again tonight), but I thought I was basically okay money-wise. Today, I talked with the lady in the office of my building and she told me that the building has a new owner. What this means is if I don't have all the rent by December 3rd, she has to charge me the late fee. (The old owner didn't give a shit if the rent was late.) I won't have all the rent by December 3rd. Then she told me that the late fee would be $150. I thought it would be $50. So I'm seriously screwed. If I don't somehow come up with the money I need, I don't eat for the entire month of December. (That extra $100 would be a large chunk of my food money.) I started freaking out. She said there were agencies that could help me, and she'd help me apply for rent help and tell me where I could go to get free food, but none of it is definite. I mean, what if it doesn't work? I can't sit back and go yay, problem solved, until I know the problem is truly solved. I do have some things I can sell, but it's again not a definite thing that any of it will sell and that it will sell in time to do me any good. If I could have my December 15th paycheck by December 3rd, that would solve my problems, but that's not going to happen. It's all just so up in the air. I'm trying not to think about it until I can actually go and apply for the rent help and whatnot; I have to work for the next five days, so I can't do it immediately. It's really hard not to think about it and keep freaking out, though. So, if I seem stressed out and snappy and depressed, I'm sorry. I'll do my best not to take it out on you guys.
Once unemployment kicks in, I'll be okay. It's just December that I'm worried about. I wish these fucking messes would stop happening to me. I feel like things are never going to be okay. I just want things to be calm and relatively financially stable, where I don't have to worry about having enough money to eat from week to week. I want to stop feeling so bad all the time and being so exhausted all the time. I don't want to be stressed out anymore. I don't want anymore goddamn surprises.
I just needed to get all that out of my system. Sorry to bum anybody out.
I signed up to be remixed at
remixthedrabble and my fic Orange-Flavored Kiss was remixed not once, but twice! It's short and it has food!porn so it's a natural to be remixed into a drabble. :) emmademarais and melodyunity did the awesome remixes. If you like the Dean/Paul pairing (or just hot slash in general), you should definitely read them! Emma's Remix and Melody's Remix.I have a few general opinions to express about tonight's "Supernatural" so I'm going to put them under a cut for spoilers. I thought the episode was okay, had a few good ideas. I was a little disappointed in certain things, but other things were very nice. Sort of a "meh, it was okay" episode.
-I'm just relieved we didn't end on a huge cliffhanger, like "oh shit, did Castiel survive???" or Dean being thrown back in Hell. The WB used to twist events in their commercials so you'd think one thing was going to happen on a show when really, something totally different would happen - they lie sometimes to get you to watch, or just to make poor fans worry their little heads off. The CW does this too, as they did with the commercial for this week's episode. Dean: "What are you gonna do, throw me back in the pit?" Uriel gives him an "I am not amused" look. Next shot, Dean's back in Hell. Yeah, I so knew that wasn't going to happen. Lying CW. But even so, I'm glad it didn't happen. :D
-I'm disappointed with Anna's backstory. It's just not really what I wanted. I knew there was something off about her because of how she reacted to Castiel and Uriel coming, and her powers, and because she could see the true faces of demons. But I was kind of hoping if she was going to be an angel that she'd be, like, the child of Lucifer and/or an angel of Hell. I just have this thing for angels of Hell since Edge (a character of mine who became an angel of Hell and was eventually promoted to muse this year; I just have a strong connection with him for some reason). Or maybe just badass angels in general. It was hard to buy Anna as an angel, really. She had this extremely youthful voice that just ruined the effect for me. That and just other things about her... meh. Whatever, I just didn't care about her much.
-I don't get why Bobby's panic room keeps out angels. Ghosts, I understand, demons, okay, but why angels? Angels don't like salt? That was a great line, though, when Dean said that the room keeps out demons and gestures to Ruby, standing outside the room, and Ruby says the fact that the room is demon proof is racist, and Dean goes, "Call your congressman." Bahaha.
-I liked the Dean/Anna sex scene simply because it got Jensen shirtless (but DAYUM does he have a nice back; I wanna SCRATCH it for 'im) and he's such a hotass kisser. ^_^ It seemed kinda forced in there, though. Another sweeps moment. And they copied "Titanic" with the hand against the fogged up car window, heehee. Oh well. I didn't hate Anna, but she didn't stir much in me either.
-I looooved all the Dean/Castiel moments. Loved, loved, loved them. When Uriel said to Dean that Castiel didn't want to throw Dean back into Hell because, "He likes you." Yeeeee! And when Castiel was in danger and Dean defended him, yeeeee! And all the looks Castiel gave, the wounded, suffering, "I don't want to do this because it will hurt Dean, but I have to" sort of looks. My favorite expression was when Alastair was trying to hurt Castiel, and Cas was on the floor giving these "gee, that kind of hurts," wounded looks, I just wanted to jump him and make it all better. Soooo adorable and hot.
-But I'm disappointed that when the demons and angels came together to fight, it was mostly about punching. Ugh. Gimme some badass angely demony fighting! Humans can punch! Angels should be able to do something far more awesome. At least bring out their wings. Although, Uriel's thing, the way he burned the demons out of the human bodies, that was cool.
-That was a pretty good trick they played on the demons and angels, bring them together in one place and let them fight it out. I think they should have tried something like that to save Dean from his deal - promise his soul to someone else and let them fight it out with Lilith, hoping they'll kill each other. Not foolproof, but it might've worked.
-I wonder what Ruby was talking about, the extra thing Sam can do that he doesn't want to do anymore? That sounded interesting.
-Dean did some major crying at the end there. Awww, poor thing. I think that's more tears that we've seen run down his face than ever before. I understand why he feels guilty, but I don't think he should feel so bad. The people he was torturing in hell were most likely there because they deserved to be, unlike him. But I get it. Dean became everything he was raised to hate. Poor Dean, let Castiel kiss it and make it better.
-I really can't fathom what 30 years of torture would do to a soul. Dean should be screaming mad, really. At the very least, he should be waking up from his nightmares in a screaming, crying mess.
-That really was a good trick they played on everybody. They played Uriel, they played Alastair... I wonder if Anna was in on it? It kinda seems like she was, because she knew the necklace around Uriel's neck held her grace. I dunno. I'm sure they didn't mean for Ruby to wind up being tortured. Woops.
-I think that's all I wanted to say. If anything else comes to me, I'll add it.
Finally, this really wasn't a good day. I'm going to give the short story. They've been cutting my hours at work again, and I've been really sick with sinus problems off and on for two weeks (I have a fever again tonight), but I thought I was basically okay money-wise. Today, I talked with the lady in the office of my building and she told me that the building has a new owner. What this means is if I don't have all the rent by December 3rd, she has to charge me the late fee. (The old owner didn't give a shit if the rent was late.) I won't have all the rent by December 3rd. Then she told me that the late fee would be $150. I thought it would be $50. So I'm seriously screwed. If I don't somehow come up with the money I need, I don't eat for the entire month of December. (That extra $100 would be a large chunk of my food money.) I started freaking out. She said there were agencies that could help me, and she'd help me apply for rent help and tell me where I could go to get free food, but none of it is definite. I mean, what if it doesn't work? I can't sit back and go yay, problem solved, until I know the problem is truly solved. I do have some things I can sell, but it's again not a definite thing that any of it will sell and that it will sell in time to do me any good. If I could have my December 15th paycheck by December 3rd, that would solve my problems, but that's not going to happen. It's all just so up in the air. I'm trying not to think about it until I can actually go and apply for the rent help and whatnot; I have to work for the next five days, so I can't do it immediately. It's really hard not to think about it and keep freaking out, though. So, if I seem stressed out and snappy and depressed, I'm sorry. I'll do my best not to take it out on you guys.
Once unemployment kicks in, I'll be okay. It's just December that I'm worried about. I wish these fucking messes would stop happening to me. I feel like things are never going to be okay. I just want things to be calm and relatively financially stable, where I don't have to worry about having enough money to eat from week to week. I want to stop feeling so bad all the time and being so exhausted all the time. I don't want to be stressed out anymore. I don't want anymore goddamn surprises.
I just needed to get all that out of my system. Sorry to bum anybody out.
