So very, very busy
Apr. 2nd, 2009 11:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sailorhathorI don't know where the time goes lately. I want to update with my opinions on "Supernatural," gossip about work, so on so forth, and I just can't find the time. I would have to completely ignore my friends list (like most of the rest of you :P) for days just to have some extra time, and I very much don't want to do that because I know I would miss some great stuff. (Spoilers, pics, gossip, good fics, your opinions of Supernatural, etc.) I'm going to figure it out someday, because I used to have a full-time job and keep up with all this crap, so why can't I do it now? I mean, there was a time when Grey Dawg wasn't cutting my hours and I kept up. It's very frustrating.
Anyway, this job announcement is not an April Fool's joke. Countrywide has offered me a permanent (not temp) job as long as I pass the background check/drug test. Yay! As a result, my mind has *completely* checked out of the AHA job. It hasn't helped that I've been sick all week, stuffy and headachy, and in pain from sitting up in the office chair using the mouse. Yeah, whatever, I'm convinced that getting older just means your body finding new places to ache for stupid reasons. My neck, shoulders, and right arm have been hurting, and just started to feel better today.
Basically, I could survive just fine financially through 'til the Countrywide job starts, but my sense of "don't be a complete fuckup" has kicked in and is making me go in to AHA as long as they'll have me. I have to go get the drug test etc done on Tuesday, which means I'll miss that day, and who knows what other running around CW will want me to do next week. I'll see what AHA says when I go in tomorrow and give them my notice. Which just makes me nervous. I hate that kind of confrontation. I don't think they'll care that much, because I'm sure there are other people around who would be happy to have my job there, but I still hate doing this. I hate disappointing people. I hate feeling like I'm just going to get screwed again and instead of having one job and a better one on the way, I'll somehow wind up with no job because life loves to kick me when I'm down. I have to have faith and just believe that everything will turn out good; otherwise, I stress myself out. But that's very hard to do after the shit I've had to slog through since 2004.
I have to remember, there were lots of jobs that called me for interviews. I do have marketable skills. Even if this job falls through as well, there will be others. (But it won't!)
If AHA wants to get mad at me, it doesn't matter. I will still survive. I can just sit at home and collect unemployment until the CW job starts.
Argh, I want to talk more about all my job stuff, but it's 12:15 and I need to go to bed so I won't be a complete zombie tomorrow. The commute to CW should be a lot shorter than this one! Won't have to get up as early! *thumbs up*
Anyway, this job announcement is not an April Fool's joke. Countrywide has offered me a permanent (not temp) job as long as I pass the background check/drug test. Yay! As a result, my mind has *completely* checked out of the AHA job. It hasn't helped that I've been sick all week, stuffy and headachy, and in pain from sitting up in the office chair using the mouse. Yeah, whatever, I'm convinced that getting older just means your body finding new places to ache for stupid reasons. My neck, shoulders, and right arm have been hurting, and just started to feel better today.
Basically, I could survive just fine financially through 'til the Countrywide job starts, but my sense of "don't be a complete fuckup" has kicked in and is making me go in to AHA as long as they'll have me. I have to go get the drug test etc done on Tuesday, which means I'll miss that day, and who knows what other running around CW will want me to do next week. I'll see what AHA says when I go in tomorrow and give them my notice. Which just makes me nervous. I hate that kind of confrontation. I don't think they'll care that much, because I'm sure there are other people around who would be happy to have my job there, but I still hate doing this. I hate disappointing people. I hate feeling like I'm just going to get screwed again and instead of having one job and a better one on the way, I'll somehow wind up with no job because life loves to kick me when I'm down. I have to have faith and just believe that everything will turn out good; otherwise, I stress myself out. But that's very hard to do after the shit I've had to slog through since 2004.
I have to remember, there were lots of jobs that called me for interviews. I do have marketable skills. Even if this job falls through as well, there will be others. (But it won't!)
If AHA wants to get mad at me, it doesn't matter. I will still survive. I can just sit at home and collect unemployment until the CW job starts.
Argh, I want to talk more about all my job stuff, but it's 12:15 and I need to go to bed so I won't be a complete zombie tomorrow. The commute to CW should be a lot shorter than this one! Won't have to get up as early! *thumbs up*
