I want. To write.
Jun. 6th, 2011 12:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sailorhathorMan, I am dying to have the time to write something, but with job hunting and such, I haven't written a thing in at least six weeks. I feel like I'm in a constant state of flux because I don't have my life in order, and when things are like that, I actually feel guilty for taking the time to do creative things. But, creative things are what I live for - they're the only things that make me happy. It's a hard place to be. So it's very unlikely I'll have my ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
spacebigbang story done on time (considering I haven't written a word and the draft is due this week :P). The whole story is outlined, but I just couldn't get motivated to do it with all these other things to do and other ideas filling my head. The Campbells (from SPN) have been running around in there a lot lately, distracting me from other stories. I'm not sure I'll be able to finish my au_bigbang story on time either because there's just SO MUCH to write to even get it to a good stopping point, and that's due around July 1st. I dropped out of au_bigbang last year, too, so I feel guilty about doing it again. I guess if I can get most of it written, it'll be okay if it's not finished by draft day. Outlining it would be a big help. Arrrrgh, I hate joining things like this and then not being able to finish. It makes me feel like such a flake, and about the thing I love to do most in life. :( And the au_bigbang story has been started, too, so it'd be an extra big shame not to finish it for this round.
If somebody would just give me a job, then I could take all the time I wanted to to write in my off time and not feel bad about it. Mostly lately, I just dream about stuff I want to write instead of actually writing. Dreaming and plotting are fun and feed the muse quite a bit, but not enough.
spacebigbang story done on time (considering I haven't written a word and the draft is due this week :P). The whole story is outlined, but I just couldn't get motivated to do it with all these other things to do and other ideas filling my head. The Campbells (from SPN) have been running around in there a lot lately, distracting me from other stories. I'm not sure I'll be able to finish my au_bigbang story on time either because there's just SO MUCH to write to even get it to a good stopping point, and that's due around July 1st. I dropped out of au_bigbang last year, too, so I feel guilty about doing it again. I guess if I can get most of it written, it'll be okay if it's not finished by draft day. Outlining it would be a big help. Arrrrgh, I hate joining things like this and then not being able to finish. It makes me feel like such a flake, and about the thing I love to do most in life. :( And the au_bigbang story has been started, too, so it'd be an extra big shame not to finish it for this round.If somebody would just give me a job, then I could take all the time I wanted to to write in my off time and not feel bad about it. Mostly lately, I just dream about stuff I want to write instead of actually writing. Dreaming and plotting are fun and feed the muse quite a bit, but not enough.
